Sad?

Trouble by this feeling... Can't really describe it. Its not like the past. I can't laugh it off anymore. Its not the same, I smile yet my heart ache.

My hands start to shake... My mind blanked. I wish for this to be over. I yearn to be hear but well, it doesn't really matter now.

God... You taught me to be kind. You taught me to smile more. You taught me that the smile is a cure for all. You taught me to laugh it off at all times. You taught me that after the rain, there will be sunshine. Yet I was lost in kindness, happiness and sadness. What should I do... What have I done?

Tears starts to fall... Hearts start to ache... But the world was silence just like it used to be. When the lights are no more and when the day arrives, oh Lord I need your advice.